So, I've decided to give recovery a shot.
My first day went over okay I suppose.
I managed to keep a bagel and four pieces of salami down without burning off the calories.
I'm also thinking of confiding in my parents.
Of course, this has me terrified.
I can't very well say "Hey, mum, I have an eating disorder."
I'm so afraid that they'll look at me and say "You don't have an eating disorder. You're not thin enough."
Or that they'll be angry.
I know my dad will be angry.
I figured that the next time he goes out of town on business, I'll tell my mum everything and try to have her break it to dad gently.
I don't know.
Am I doing the right thing?
Or is this all a big mistake?
You're definitely doing the right thing in trying out recovery. Sounds like you're doing very well so far. Just take it a little at a time and don't overwhelm yourself, its a process.
ReplyDeleteAs for telling your parents, judging from how you think your dad would react, telling your mom is probably better. Maybe you could write her a letter explaining your feelings? That way she can't interrupt you if you decide to tell her.
All the best. And keep strong; you CAN do this. :)