An update

So.....after sending the message to my Dad on Facebook Tuesday night about my ED and self-injury, I had a long and awkward talk with a doctor. He prescribed me antidepressants and referred me to a counselor. Fun times. Well, at least now they know, so I don't feel like I have to keep everything a secret anymore. I know I'll still hide things, but now I won't feel as compelled as I used to. Such a weight seems to have been lifted.

Confessions

I just wrote a letter to my Dad and sent it in a message on Facebook. In it, I explain all my ED and cutting issues. I'm so scared that he's going to look at me differently, be angry and hate me. I guess I'll know the outcome tomorrow.......So. Fucking. SCARED!!!

Bette Midler's 66th Birthday and other things

Well, yesterday was Bette Midler's birthday, and the sign of my ultimate failure. My goal was to lose 20lbs by December 1st..............I can't even fucking manage to do that. I'm so pathetic. I'm weak. Nothing.