Starting tomorrow, I have to work from 06:00 to 18:00...(6am to 6pm for non-military people), seven days a week. As if I'm not tired enough already. Anyway, I bought a new car today, and I can't wait to go to work and show Jonathen and Kayla.
Jonathen...what can I say about him? For starters, I hope he feels better. He was going hoarse Thursday and yesterday, so I hope he's not getting sick. Talking to him makes me day so much better and he can keep me sane for the most part.
I ate so fucking much today....I had four pieces of grilled bread, some chicken, and four pretzel rods. I feel so disgusted with myself. I'm never going to reach my goal weight if I keep this shit up. Jonathen already looks horrified and heartbroken when he looks at me, and I know it's because I'm so huge. He'll never be interested in me as long as I'm this fat. I have to lose it, not only so I'll be happy, but in the hopes that he'll notice me....
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