Of New Songs and Improving Health

Anyone who knows me, is on my Facebook, or on PT knows that I've been ill.
As a result, my 5-day fast was put on hold in the hopes of improving my health.
It seems to have helped, as today I'm feeling better, and so starting Monday, my 5-day fast will resume.

I've written a new song, this time for the man I loved more than life itself.
I've moved on, I've come to realise that I don't miss him, I miss the relationship. I miss being with someone. Being held, kissed, having someone say "I love you" every night.
But him personally? No.
Nevertheless, I do hope he's happy.
Everyone deserves that much.

Do you even remember
The way you held me in your arms
How you said you loved me that December
And promised to protect me from all harm

Both of us were certain we were in love
Not knowing how badly the pain would scar
Love just wasn't enough
And you still dwell in the shadows of my heart

Whatever you're searching for out there
I hope you find it
When you look back on the time we shared
I hope you don't regret it

We will never be rid of the scars
But now I wonder if I'll ever be free
Who truly owns my heart
Is it you or the ghost of your memory?

I still think of you from time to time
But it's nothing I can't do without
I'll find the one for me in my own time
I know this without a shadow of doubt

I used to wonder why I wasn't enough
Used to think I wasn't good enough for you
I know now I never truly had your love
Don't deny it, you know it's true

Whatever you're searching for out there
I hope you find it
When you look back on the time we shared
I hope you don't regret it

We will never be rid of the scars
But now I wonder if I'll ever be free
Who truly owns my heart
Is it you or the ghost of your memory?

I won't hold on to you
Won't lose myself for you
I won't waste my time on you
I'm letting go of you

Whatever you're searching for out there
I hope you find it
When you look back on the time we shared
I hope you don't regret it

I will never be rid of the scars
But I know now I will be free
You don't own my heart
I'm through with you and the ghost of your memory