Choices

 The choices I've made have led me to where I am. I am not blaming anyone else for the person I've become. Yes, a few people have broken my heart over the years, but really...that was only part of it. Many of the things I've done I regret. Some of them, if I could change it, I would. Some would stay the same. Things fall into place the way they were meant to.


Does it feel like sometimes there's no way out? Do I sometimes wonder if I'll be alone for the rest of my life? Do I worry about being trapped in this dead-end job and never living out my dream? Yes. However, I know differently. I'll find my way back, I'll meet that one man that I will spend the rest of my life with, and I'll move to Nashville before I'm 26 to pursue my dream. It's just a matter of time.


If you don't like me, or can't accept me and my decisions, then somehow I'll have to live with that. If I hadn't gone down the road I'm on, I wouldn't be the person I am today. Life is not always beautiful. It is not always fair and kind, but it's always worth it. The world is a harsh place, and the sooner people learn that, the better off they'll be.


I've accepted my guilt and my responsibility for the things I've done, and no one is ever going to change me. I don't really care if you think I'm strange. No one is going to control me or tell me that I can't do something. You want to tell me no? That I can't do it? That I can't make it as a singer or anything else I want to do? Watch me. I'll prove you wrong. And I'll love every damn minute of it.